I had my first counseling session today. I had to return to the hospital alone. It is my second visit to the hospital since my babies died. I met with the consultant two weeks ago for a follow up and DH attended with me. I was extremely nervous about going today. I would have done anything not to have gone to avoid it.. to hide. I woke this morning once more a bit disturbed from my dreams. I dreamt of Baby Luke and that we were giving another child that
