5 years old today

Happy Birthday Luke & Arthur, 5 years old today. As the years pass and I've become so busy with my toddler and twins.. Its hard to find the time and space for my first born twins. I dont know how I feel about that. Five years ago I could't think how I was going to live and here I am preparing for Santa and very much living. I am in a better place, I have completed my IVF journey, which is a huge relief and im healing. I'm sad that my boys did not have the opportunity to live and experience life but its very important that my living children have me present and living for them so this is my new journey.. I love been a mom and I love my children. We will always celebrate our boys life and my children will know their brothers. Today I feel good and im looking forward to our little family tradition of putting up our tree this weekend and our outing to the woods to visit the twins memorial tree. My children are healing me everyday xxx

A journey complete..

Over a year has passed since I have visited this site.. We celebrated our boys 4th birthday anniversary in the same way.. Visiting were we planted their memorial trees and putting up our Christmas tree..

This year we welcomed twin girls into the world.. I went back for another cycle of IVF and to our surprise we had twins again.. I was so afraid the entire pregnancy that something would happen but it turned out to be my easiest pregnancy yet.. Completely non eventful.. Cate & Emilia were born on the 19th October 2015.. Our family is complete and hectic!! It's been a long and very difficult journey and in 7 years I have had 9 IVF fresh/ frozen cycles and delivered 5 children.. But we have come to a place were we have our beautiful family..